Life in a waiting room

I fee like I am just waiting for my life to begin. I don't know how to jump start it though.

I thought I hated Jackson because it was Jackson. I think I was just lonely in Jackson. I think I am lonely in Spring Lake too.

I miss living with everyone close to me. If I felt lonely I could just go somewhere and find someone to hang out with me. It's not that easy anymore.

I need to make friends but I don't even know how.

I don't want watch my life go by while sitting on the sidelines. I wan to be a full participant. I need adventure. I need friends. I need hope that there is more. I probably need a job.

What is a fulfilled life anyway?