Merry Christmas

Today I read a whole book. Almost 400 pages. It wasn't even that good of a book, I was just bored.

Merry Christmas.

Have you noticed Christmas keeps getting more and more uneventful as we get older? I used to wake up at 5 in the morning because I was so excited. This year I had picked out everything I got. I am returning the Nintendo DS because I decide I want to spend that money on clothes and shoes.

It has snowed a lot this week. I mean more then usual. There is a wall of snow in the yard.

an update while snowed in

The past week I have been staying with my friends in Jackson so I could work this week. I has payed off... literally. It is nice to get one last big check before I stop working (well getting payed for working).

Today I drove to work in a snowstorm, and stupidly parked my car on the side of the road. I had to dig it out of the snow when I left. Luckily a nice man with a shovel came over and helped me. Then pulling into the parking lot of the apartment I got stuck again. This time two men came to my rescue and got my car parked and safe. Oh yes, in the middle of all this my windshield wipers broke. Basically I wish I could just teleport home. I don't want to drive home, but I want to BE home. arggggg. I should have gone home last night and not worked today.

I must go assess the weather situation. We'll see how it goes.

Lasts (maybe some firsts)

Today was my last chapel ever. So strange. I think this week will be full of lasts. Maybe some firsts too.

Last weekend was my last weekend as a "normal" college kid. Maybe some things happened that shouldn't have, or maybe they were supposed to. Today one of my prof's said "I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason." That has just been in my head all day. I think I am a firm believer in that too.

I love my best friend for her optimism. Seriously, I love that she just believes that everything really will turn out right. As much as I know she is wrong sometimes it just makes me smile to think that she is so sure of things. I need her, for many reasons, but especially for that.









On a different note:
"You should have said no, you should have gone home, you should have thought twice before you let it all go." - Taylor Swift (Should have said no)

Last Saturday

It's my last weekend as a "normal" college student since I student teach next semester. Last night Cory came (yay) and a group of us went to a buffalo wild wings knock off restaurant in Jackson. Then we just goofed around (mostly Cory and I). We actually made a video... of random nothing really... that I still have to edit.

I need to clean today. My room and the living room is messy... thanks to me.

I have to go to a baby shower today for a girl from work. It should be alright. Martz is going to a Christmas party tonight and Heather is hanging out with her friend Amanda. What will Anna and I do? Who knows what tonight will hold. Hopefully something fun. I really just want to have fun.

Boy in Hall

Somebody is in our hallway talking really loudly. I just went and told him this. He did not seem to care.

Random stuff including Brooke Davis

Instead of doing something productive, like homework I am just going to write. Why? Because I have less then two weeks of actual classroom school left. You have no idea how exciting that is. However, I am incredibly saddened by it too. Obviously I don't care about the school work part, but the part about leaving it all behind... kind of sad/scary/exciting. I dunno too many emotions to really put a name to them all.

For a reflection I had to write for a class I quoted One Tree Hill. I'm pretty sure that makes it an amazing reflection. It was actually a Peyton quote, even though I pretty much identify with Brooke Davis... like I am her, minus the fact that she is beautiful, kind of a slut, has terrible parents, dates lots of boys, and is a clothing designer. Everything else exactly the same.




Ok this is a really self-centered thought, so don't hold it against me... BUT I keep wondering how the arbor will go on without me. It is kind of bugging me to know that when I am gone my presence will really be forgotten. WEIRD.

In other news I met my cooperating teacher for student teaching and she is GREAT! Seriously. She is everything I aspire to be and more. I am totally excited for student teaching now and a lot less scared! YES!

Snow, School, Dreams

Yesterday when I left work it was snowing. First kiss snow in fact. (That's what I call it when the flakes are huge and it looks like a scene from a movie where the characters are having their first kiss) I thought, how can you not feel happy when the snow is so beautiful? I quickly answered that for myself when I became annoyed with my dear roommate anna for really no good reason. At least the snow was pretty!

I just spent about two hours learning the first minute and a half of the dance to single ladies by beyonce. I feel like I have worked out. Maybe that is what I should do for exercise, learn dances through watching them on youtube.

I really need to be studying for my quiz in night class tonight. I am such a procrastinator! I don't know how to get better at putting things off. I just never want to do school work anymore. I find it rather pointless. If only I hadn't done badly on two previous quizzes then I wouldn't study and just drop this quiz grade, unfortunately I did poorly on two quizzes (22 and 51... ouch!) The other three quiz scores are 100's. We get to drop our lowest scores, so that 22 is outta there! In the end... if I ever get my butt in gear... I should have four 100's and one 51. Can I also say that I studied a lot for that quiz I got a 51 on, I just studied the wrong things. (The 22 I did not study at all for)

After that quiz and talking with the prof about our projects I am done for Thanksgiving break. (Well I still have to work tomorrow at 6:30 am, but school stuff is done)

I dreamed that Mark and I were getting married. It was really weird because I kept asking him "are you sure you really want to do this?" and he was so calm about it, like it was no big deal. Since he was so chill about it I was too. Also in this dream I was dress shopping and I was so skinny in the dress I picked. Haha guess it was a dream after all :)

A picture of Mark and me for good measure :) (trust me we are destined to be just friends)

Inspired.

I have been inspired to state blogging. I don't really know what inspired me, but I am none the less inspired. I just want to put everything out there. My life is changing in huge ways. I can't even fathom where I will be in a year (hopefully teaching somewhere... paying off student loans). So for now I just want to enjoy the moment and share my fears.

So here is what I have been thinking about lately:

Some people in my life don't realize how much they annoy me when they make stupid decisions.

My grandpa -- he's been in the hospital for a while, and I just want him to be with us for Thanksgiving.

Other people in my life who I feel do not care about our relationship as much as I do. They are losers and they need to care.

This thing keeps saving and it is wierding me out.