Mother's Day

I did not see my mother today. I actually worked and seated a lot of mothers :)

I did call my mother. I do love her and feel very VERY thankful that she is mine. We've been through a lot, me and her, and the older I get the more she becomes my friend, not just my mother.

I hope to be a mother someday.

First I should probably figure out some other parts of my life... like where the heck I am going to live and work in four months.

Oh yes

Graduation... so close. I am less stressed about getting a job because I am going to a job fair on Friday. I believe I am a quality person and can obtain a job in education, therefore I am going to walk in with confidence and just be like "Hi, I'm Kate. I am going to be a great teacher and am willing to go just about anywhere in the USA... wanna hire me?" (bat the the eyelashes a little there).

Actually these are the states I've ruled out:
California (too common everyone goes there)
Colorado (I am trying to get away from snow)
Kansas (Seriously, do I need more of a reason then it's Kansas?)
Texas (People in Texas seem to have big egos)
Wisconsin (Once again the snow thing)
Arizona (no real reason, it just has no appeal to me)

My current top runners are:
Georgia (there is going to be a school district at this job fair that is going to be opening FOUR elementary schools next year!)
Nebraska (seems random, but I know people around there, and I've heard it's a growing community)
North Carolina (they need some good teachers/I could live near Wilmington <3)
Virginia (just has appeal)
Maryland (lots of school districts are going to be at this job fair)



The convo I overheard on the bus trip today with my pre-kers :
Claire: I want glasses
Jocelynn (who wears pink glasses): Why? Because they're cute?
Claire: Yes
Jocelynn: Well you need a lazy eye like me. I have a strong eye and a lazy eye.

Kids these days... we took them to Meijer due to unforeseen circumstances with the school we were supposed to visit. I really think some of them had more fun looking at the toys in Meijer.

Cap and Gown

Yesterday I picked up my cap and gown at the "grad fair". I put that in quotation marks like that because lets be real, it was like four tables set up in half the fireside. One of the tables was just to sign in, on was to buy a class ring (does anyone even do that?). One was to sign up for the alumni association (woops I missed that table). One was where you pick up your cap and gown (obviously the most important table). The last one was this survey thing. Yes it was pretty lame.

Today after school I cut Mark and Ryan's hair. As I was cutting Mark's hair I told him this would probably be the last time I cut his hair... like ever... in our lives. He made some comment about yea until we're 30. I'm starting to feel sentimental. I mean c'mon the last time I'm cutting his hair? Is this really something I'm going to miss three years from now? Well.... lets be honest, probably.

I can just feel myself getting more and more sentimental as the semester comes to an end.

Konstantine

I want to be able to go to dinner and eat by myself. There is a guy who comes into the restaurant every Sunday and eats by himself and reads the newspaper. There is a lady who has come in a couple times by herself and ate alone too. I want to be able to do that.

Today I made a small step in that direction. I went to Quizno's and ate there all by myself. I know it's not a sit down type restaurant, but it's a small start towards my goal.

I am starting to get really scared about the future. It makes me feel sick to my stomach to think about it. I hope that's normal.

I'm listening to Konstantine by Something Corporate. I love this song.

"And then you bring me home, afraid to find out that you're alone."

erg

Being a preschool teacher is HARD WORK! It's weird I say this now after I have worked at a preschool for three years, but never all day, every day. I am beat by the end of each day. I wish the kids would stop telling me "no" (erg) I wish they wouldn't bit me (erg) I wish they would just put on their coats and go outside instead of me having to force their coats on and carry them out (erg) I wish they would roll over and let me rub their backs during nap (erg) I wish they wouldn't scream and throw a tantrum at the first sign they aren't going to get what they want (erg).

Some days it's hard to see the positives. Oh wait, I have one, IT'S SPRING BREAK NEXT WEEK! I also had an orange creme sickle today at snack... tasty!

My cousin is pregnant and I have never been more excited for a baby in my life!

My tournament brackets are failing me.

My best friend can't come visit me this weekend because all four tires got stolen off her car last weekend in Chicago.

Oh man.

Clear Eyes, Full Hearts

Clear eyes, full hearts can't lose.

If you know what show that is from you may also know I have been obsessively watching that show. I have finished the first two seasons (granted the second season only has 15 episodes) in four days.

It is currently 1 am and I should be sleeping for like two hours now, but instead I just HAD to finish season 2. The worst part is there wasn't much to see. Season 1 = AMAZING. Season 2 = Less than desirable. Hopefully season 3 (which is currently showing on real tv) will be like season 1 again. I must blame the lameness of season 2 on the writers strike. I would like to give those people a piece of my mind and tell them how much they ruined my life last year/forever because of all my shows that have a bad season because of that strike.

My computer has a virus.

Can you read my mind?

Sometimes I think people can read my thoughts. It is actually quite disturbing and I hope people can't read my thoughts, because sometimes they aren't very nice. And sometimes they are weird, and sometimes they are embarrassing and sometimes they are just so crazy no one should know them but me.

So if you can read my thoughts just let me know.